Put yourself first

Kita continue previous punya cerita. Haha. Madah lebih aku minggu niii. Bagi aku nak bangkit daripada episod duka perlukan kekuatan. So, jangan segan dan malu untuk berdoa kepada Sang Pencipta diberi kekuatan menghadapi hari-hari sukar kau. And langkah lain  kau kena buat ialah kau kena put yourself first. Sebabnya at the end of the day, kau akan pergi meninggalkan dunia by yourself just like kau entered it by yourself.

Kau perlu jadikan diri kau sendiri sebagai sahabat baik which is you need to become your own best friend, your own therapist and your own hero. As you know a boy isn't going to save you. A boy isn't going to magically make you happy. Pada tika dan saat ini aku mendengar lagu ISTIKHARAH CINTA by Ecoustic. Sangat membangkitkan perasaan sebak. Huhuhuhu. That's all up to you. It's up to me. All decision under my choices. So, I need to do now open my doors, break down the locked windows and jump tower that I built for myself to hide from the world around. I need go outside and actually experience what it's like to take a walk alone with just in own thoughts.

Sekali lagi lagu JAWAPAN RINDU berkumandang. Hmm. cukup membuatkan aku tersentuh dan mengalirkan air mata. Mungkin aku tidak lagi memerlukan jawapan rindu daripada manusia. Hmmm, jawapan rindu yang sememangnya aku perlu minta daripada Sang Pencipta.

I hope that I take a deep breath by myself without choking, I hope I can jump without being scared of falling. This time important to me in jump and fly. To live fearlessly, to climb in my own mountain.(Success) and go out and live in my life instead of waiting bu an unopened window. Maybe, I need to walk alone by drink coffee at cafe without asking a friend to go with me. Enjoy myself and I can got new things and what new people might come into my life.

So, sweet girl CIK RASA..

Stop waiting, and wishing. And start building my career, life to begin again.

12/07 21 October 2016 (Meja Study, Kolej Anggerik, UiTM Shah Alam, Selangor)